Not knowing.... No control!!!!

      I am a women who does not know what my future holds,even though I try so hard to make my future bright or me and my kids.  I dont understand why things go so wrong ?,, am I being tested by God? I would really like to know.  The no control comes in because in my house my boyfreind controls everything... in every sense of the word. Making me feel like i am living in a jail and he is my Co... Thats an awful way to live. Not having control over any part of my life is just making me so depressed and so not wanting to deal with things in life that are hard for me... How do I get the control back ......?